Embracing My Uniqueness

I think in order to fully embrace my uniqueness, I need to know what is unique about me. That's a hard one, I think I am really ordinary but boring. Yet I feel so different from others, I have never met anyone just like me and often feel a little bit like an outsider in groups. When I do see something different about myself, I often see it as something negative. I'm going to start by making a list, I'm sure that at least someone will fit in each category if not several, but I'm not if anyone else will fall under each category.

I married really young.

I'm fairly petite, okay I am just now two pregnancies later fitting adult clothes!

I know we make enough money (I didn't say I was content with it, I often wish we made more, but we have enough to pay our bills each month.)

My relationship with Christ, especially as a teenager.

I love being a mom! I love it! I have a 2 year old son and have worked with teenagers for 9 years, so I understand first hand how challenging and hard parenting can be. I have to do a lot of it by myself because my husband often puts in really long weeks. He is an amazing father! Our children are him and he adores them! He seeks opportunities to spend time with them, even if it's playing for only a few minutes or watching cartoons on a Saturday morning. He is really great at taking our son and doing "guy stuff" and just adoring our little girl and telling her how beautiful she is! I am so grateful for the man he is and the father he is! I'm grateful for the example he is to our children. Our son wants to be just like him and is so much like him, I'm so thankful that he is a man I can be proud of and proud of our son following in his footsteps.
Anyways, I love being a mom despite the challenges, I tell my friends that being a Momma is what brings me before the Throne on a daily basis. It's what reminds me of my need for grace, my own short comings, and my inability to do this on my own.
My son will be 3 really soon -- too soon! Where did the time go? It feels like I just brought him home from the hospital. Now he is almost 3 and we are about to welcome baby #3! He is only "all mine" for a couple more very short years and then he will go off to school. I really desire to make the most of our time together!

I love to bake, especially cookies! I'm kind of known as the cookie lady around here.

I am closer with my mother-in-law than my own mother.

Really for my short life (comparatively speaking) I think I have had a lot of life experiences -- good and bad. I've written my own newsletter, coordinated concerts, met famous people, been on stage in front of 23,000 people, been disowned by my parents and rejected by my family, I've also seen those relationships restored, I've felt like a complete failure, and I've grown so much, I've come to accept myself and the many shortcomings (failures) I see in myself, our marriage has been amazing and really rocky in the past, we've had too much money and no where near enough, I've been alone and surrounded by loved ones, I've seen friends die and watched other friends loose children.

I don't mind cleaning. I use to clean for a surgery tech. Both her husband and daughter told me no one could clean to her standards (she was after all, a former house cleaner herself). I take pride in that she only pointed out one spot I missed -ever!

I am an organizer. I always have been, when I was a little girl, I seriously use to organize my socks!

I like both math and English. I really, really enjoy math especially algebra and would take class just for fun if I had time.

I am a perfectionist to a fault. I think it is the biggest obstacle in my life.

I am kind of old-fashion.

I don't like coffee at all! I enjoy really mild tea, hot chai and hot chocolate.

A perfect date in my opinion is a trip to a book store with a coffee shop and then maybe some games.

I am really competitive.

I love being home with my children. I wasn't a homebody before my daughter came along. I don't know if it was the challenge of getting two little ones ready and out the door or if it was that she was colicky.

I married the cool guy. We are complete opposites. I don't know if I should write being his opposite up as good or bad. He is the cool guy everywhere we have ever gone! People love him and remember him. He is funny and everyone is comfortable around him. He knows a little about everything and always has something insightful or encouraging to say. And I am his opposite, meaning none of that is true about me. I always wonder if I was cool enough to marry the cool guy or uncool enough to not be a competitive threat to his coolness.

I love chocolate, I don't think my life could on without it!

My choice drink is water.

Random fact, since I was old enough to legally consume alcohol, I've either been pregnant or nursing.

Where is the line between who I am and what makes me unique?